Basic Instinct

Long before Sharron Stone gave this phrase a sexual flavor, it used to signify something else, something deeper than the skin. The feeling, the hunch of knowing something, the ability to predict something. Remember the time when u disliked a guy, without a reason? Remember when u get uncomfortable in someone's presence despite his/her best efforts to make u feel good? You find something is amiss. I think thats what is basic instinct.

N today I accept what I never did... I have an excellent instinctive system wrt judging people. Was stupid enough to ignore its presence.. Would always be the first one to proclaim myself as the defender of logic n reason. But some ppl would just be hell bent on me accepting it finally, that am pretty-pretty good at judging people. I don't remember any instance where my initial feeling about a person has been proven wrong. I still remember that gal in y school whom i knew to be ..... But then i became friends with her behavior made me ignore my hunch. But hey she proved me right just before i left the school. N today... The biggest example which made me change the stance... I knew he was like this... Always knew it... Yet he managed to do that twice... I guess I should be blamed only. I thought people learn from their mistakes, he would as well. What i ignored was that i myself did not learn from mine... Bad for me! You know what, the basic nature of people doesn't change. Their behavior may tempt you to think otherwise.. They might become your friends, but no! They would not change! Do you really think 25 yrs of formations would give way to some months old "friendship"? A weakling remains just that, a s*** always has only one hormone working, n a bastard is anyone's guess!

N yeah one more thing at me.... If at all u wanna know me more, understand one thing about me... I have this huuuuuuge ego! You dont have to inflate it, but u r gone if u hurt it... Has anyone been able to get away by steppin on it? No dude! No!

So dude, next time you think of changing you opinion about someone, think again. Maybe your initial hunch is right... The person is not worth another chance. I know for myself, from now on, its the basic instinct that rocks!

50 years on, Atlas still hasn't Shrugged.....

50 years back, Ayn Rand asked all the Atlas of the world to shrug. She asked the movers of the world to stop working for the unproductive people. She wanted to protect our blood from the parasites. But 50 years on, Atlas is still undecided. He still carries the world that hurts him, kicks him, abuses him and still feeds on his blood. He still bleeds.....

So why doesn't he shrug? Why doesn't he say - Thts it, I give up!!! When Atlas Shrugged came out, many predicted the death of Communism. It symbolized what is now ridiculed as the Great American dream. But people hated it too coz it advocated the fulfillment of the desires of man. It valued money. But a lot of time has passed since then and the question is was the title of this masterpiece just a title or was it a metaphor, urging us to give up the unyielding struggle against the evil.

Why don't people actually say enough is enough? What stops them? Is the that omni present initial hesitation or that fear of the unknown? Maybe its complacency. I guess its the same feeling that a caged bird would be having... A bird that does not like to be caged but still is wary of freedom. Coz freedom gives it the choice. Choice, if we go by Ayn Rand, should not lead to any dilemna. Thts coz right is always right and wrong is always wrong. There is no middle path. Middle paths emerge when you are not sure, when you are afraid of taking a stand.

I read Atlas Shrugged just when i started my career against the advice of many. I didn't seem to agree with some parts of the book. I always sided with Dagny Taggart and could not understand why Hank Reardon and others gave up. I believed in being a doer. I wanted to drive the engine of the world. 2 years later am not so sure. I can now understand the reasons why Dagny eventually stopped providing her blood to the parasites. But can I stop? Or rather do I want to?

One of my frnds today told me that maybe Atlas has shrugged. But I don't think so. When atlas shrugs, the engine of the world would stop. Since tht hasn't happened, since my senior still forwards my work as his own, since i still do work which doesn't really excite me without complain, Since I still put others' demands over my needs, Atlas hasn't shrugged coz i haven't shrugged!!!!!

Tell me Maa

Tell me Maa, What did you used to tell me when i insisted for something I could not have? How did you make me forget that car I wanted to own or that airplane I wanted to fly? How did you do that? Tell me Ma, coz I wanna tell myself those things again... I wanna trick myself, wanna forget things I can't n won't be able have!!!